INNER VOICE

I realise that inner voice,

Means invoice.

Money owed

And time

is running out.

Its just a whisper

Never a shout,

Only you

and he know What its all about.

It comes and goes Like letters flows

but come end of the month.

like credit crunch It packs punch

And off your TV goes.

Get a tissue

Blow your nose

You plead desperately,

that's how the story goes,

You promise each and everyday

You'll pay them back

In any given way

you'll face the facts

But then comes the cash which You should have stashed,

And friends come calling

A gram coke, MDMA and a bottle of wine

that was yesterday morning.

Needs Cleaning

As the days go by, I wonder... what I’m doing?

The more I think I need to move on, i realize I have no need... to pursue this existence

Materials, cash, and fame at the expense of my face.

A dysfunctional daily routine, wears away at me.

I’m tired of wanting to hurt, being frustrated...

Feeling wired that I haven’t lashed out.

The flip side, pleased that control becomes my skill,

Dependent.

Not on drugs never a issue,

Say no to beers,

Second nature my desires run deeper,

Alla's the temptation of women,

I devour as admire moments of beauty.

Still the tone of longing in my voice and my body language

How the days remain, with much to do, much to say nothing achieved.

There must be another way.

Computers, worlds within worlds within worlds, no where fast, communication like content thin, false relations,

Mostly the intention of sin,

I philosophise as I realise the need not to breed,

or to be freed,

freedom is ideal,

we are free,

we just don’t know how to be.

That is the problem

You have to ask your self.

The Rabbit

She misses me
As I miss he
Long talks
Laughter
Our late night moments
We reminisce of happy ever after
The little people and the things they dude
The Big people in our lives
They can be so cruel
Exception
No rules to our conversation
Excite and orgasm if need be
Call you anytime
Ditto
Remember
I'm here if you need me.

Love don’t make me Cry

Love don’t make me cry
Tears need not fall
Hands up in the sky
My heart has given all.
I have walked all roads
And now seem lost
Only a miracle can change things
But in this world At what cost
Imagination my only refuge
Reality my pain
Consequence inevitable
A number without a name
Hard not to hate the game
The player’s choice
Easy to self destruct
Fucked
One too many fingers
In one to many pies
Lack of concentration
Glasses needed with these big eyes.
Blazer shirt but no tie
Looking smart
Jeans converse no money
Think why.

This Girl

You see this Girl

She can walk

No need to talk

Her poise says it all.

Men’s jaws drop

Knees wear thin on the floor.

Hearts stop

And…

Start again...

Her name was Angel,

has a ring to it…

don’t you think?

Twinkle in her eye

She loved the dance

I love to drink

Come to think

One faithful night

I couldn't’t resist

I wondered over

To See what between could exists

Like a Gorilla in the mist

My first words were please

Allow me to introduce you to these

I looked down

She did too

She laughed

But we knew

This was no joke.

The music filled the room

She grabbed my hand

And…

We made love on the dance floor.

She took her time as we swayed

Side to side.

This is what romance is for

To dance with your heart,

Let your feet think,

Inhale the smokes

Sweat out the drink.

Don’t sleep

Don’t blink

She is so Intelligent

Don’t need my money for the rent

Don’t need my heart

If hell bent.

Heavan after lent

The time went

Cupid held the bow,

The arrow

flew straight pass me.

How could this be?

This ain't love

She aint for me...

please...

Molly was a lover

Molly was a lover

Not just a friend

Someone I could rely on

She didn’t pretend?

It’s a shame

how life changes,

It’s a shame

It all had to end

In the beginning

Met through friends

She was stylists

A fashion icon Setting trends

We the did parties

With sniffing crew

She wore yellow

I wore blue

I looked into her I eyes

And Knew

I was in love

And she was too.

O my god

That’s when it happened

You wouldn’t believe

You couldn’t imagine

We had the money

We had the fame

Looks to kill

We played the game

A Lavish lifestyle big houses and boats

Flying Aeroplanes

Wearing pinstripe suits

Loaded with Fur coats

Dangerous

When we had a drink

The horrors that happened

Head would sink

Dark hair

And wanted lips

White Sunglass, tanned

Slim Gorgeous hips

Sips of gin

Washed with kisses

Vicious words

The queen of bitches

But after all

She was mine

It’s a shame how it had to ended

Living for a line

In the fast lane

Sowing the seed

Copious amounts

Fantastic nose bleeds

Wasted cash

Potent weed

There was only one way this was going

But I couldn’t see

Blinded by love

And excitement life

Until the death

Me and molly now my wife

Kids came

We loved them dearly,

An abstract world

They saw clearly

For all the riches

And the gold

I found my heart

My mate my soul

It came to past

Life became to fast

We grew old

Hearts beat to fast.

She looks at me

And I knew

She was leaving

So I left too

In My Bed

We lye side by side,

Still the bed is cold

We say nothing to each other

But I can hear her thoughts

Time stops

But it feels like forever

I close my eyes

But I see shadows

They never leave

Nor do theses feelings

The sun rises and falls

I aged

Inside I cry

By sun down

I Die

Nothing changes

Sex

Seems like a good Idea,

But I couldn’t careless

As for the effort and energy

Please forgive and forget me

A Hollow heart

Doesn’t make a good sound